And I don't like it. It's a trap. It's quicksand. And it's all too familiar. Nothing good lasts long enough. Reality always catches on and catches up. I grew too attached to something I have no rights to hold on to. I got what I wanted and am now pushing it away. I feel typical and uninspired and am afraid. I need something more lasting to hold on to. Something dependable. Is nothing dependable?? I know none of this is real, and none of it will last, but I'm in to deep to feel it. The fog is still lifted but clouds have rolled in. I need a little sunshine.
I was going to hash out my week, try to let go of a few things, but I just dont have the energy. The weight of these things is too much to bear alone. I don't feel so much like myself anymore.
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